Developing a Better You

Month: May 2021 (Page 1 of 2)

Want Your Best Life? Have the Courage to Look Within

The things that trouble our spirits are within us already. In meditation, we must face them, accept them, and set them aside one by one.

Christopher L. Bennett

This quote nails one of the reasons I sometimes avoid meditation—I’m afraid of what I might find. When I set aside all my distractions, quiet my mind, and look at myself honestly, who knows what may arise from the depths? I often have a suspicion when there are things inside me that I don’t want to face. False ego props, things I’ve done wrong, people I’ve hurt, beliefs I stubbornly cling too that I know won’t hold up to real scrutiny. Like a warning light on a dashboard or a lingering physical pain, I’m tempted to just ignore it and hope it goes away.

A friend recently told me about his meditation technique for deeper self-awareness. He revealed some of the frightening things he’s encountered within himself, things that he now knows he has to face. We all have those inner demons, monsters within us that we need to slay in order to become who we truly desire to be.

One of my favorite fantasy novels is The Sword of Shannara by Terry Brooks. At the end of the story, the hero discovers the magical power of the titular blade is that it forces the wielder to face the truth about themselves. All their lies, delusions, rationalizations, and self-deception are stripped away. The naked truth destroys those who are not strong enough to face it. That’s what meditation can do—force us to face our true selves. To look deeply inside ourselves is to willingly grasp the sword, knowing the trial to come.

So why would we do this? Why put ourselves through that kind of struggle? Simply this:

Everything you’ve ever wanted is sitting on the other side of fear. 

George addair

The truth of that quote both haunts and emboldens me. I know what I want, but I’m often afraid of what it takes to get it. When I’m aligned with my better angels, I gather my support network, summon my courage, and face my fears. Invariably, even if I initially fail, I move closer to my best self and my dream life in the process.

So what is it that you truly desire? Who do you want to become? What’s keeping you from your dreams? Are you willing to grasp the Sword? Focus on your goal. Go somewhere quiet. Close your eyes, breathe deep, and still your mind. Invite God or the Universe or Creation or your Inner Self or whatever you believe in to reveal what they will. Ask them to shine a light on the path to your True Self and for courage to face the real you. Acknowledge whatever arises. Process it with trusted friends and / or a good therapist. Take concrete steps to address what you find. If you do, you’ll discover adventure, joy and peace on the other side, and you’ll take a giant step toward Becoming Yourself.

Need a Pick Me Up? Get Back in the Serving Groove

Once you’re knocked out of your groove, it’s hard to get back in.

I’ve volunteered in various capacities for years now. When a local center for people experiencing homelessness was forced to stop scheduling volunteers early in the coronavirus pandemic, I wasn’t able to continue serving lunch there. I looked for other ways to volunteer remotely but nothing seemed like the right fit.

Months went by, and eventually we moved to another state. The busyness of the move and getting settled further delayed my return to volunteering. But once I was fully vaccinated, I knew I was out of excuses. It was time to get back to giving back.

To be honest, it was a struggle. I’d grown accustomed to my new volunteer-less routine. It seemed like such a chore to find someplace new to serve, go through the learning process, and take all that time out of my schedule. But I forced myself to do the research, pick a place, attend the orientation, and show up to serve.

Unsurprisingly, my shifts at a local food bank have quickly reminded me why volunteering is important. The people I meet are literally struggling for their physical survival, something that never even occurs to me in my overly blessed life. My heart broke for the downcast homeless gentleman, the mentally challenged person, the veteran desperate for someone to listen to his stories, and the elderly woman walking slowly with her cane as she struggled to collect food for her nine-person family. These are real people, just like me, deserving of dignity, respect, and help.

But the magic of serving is that the people being served aren’t the only ones who benefit. I’ve rediscovered the joy and gratitude I feel when volunteering for a cause I believe in. Energized, I literally ran through my last shift as the line of people waiting for food in the hot Arizona sun stretched down the sidewalk. I was motivated by their courage, and by the positive attitudes of so many. I returned home tired in the best sense and found myself appreciating my beautiful, privileged life in a whole new way.

So how about you? Are you intentionally serving others? If not, why not start today? A simple internet search of “volunteer opportunities near me” is a great place to begin. I’ve volunteered at a number of places using volunteermatch.org, which allows you to filter opportunities by location and area of interest. Try helping out at a food bank or a homeless shelter or a school or a church. Maybe your way of serving isn’t through an organization at all, but by mowing an elderly neighbor’s lawn or dropping off cookies or writing encouraging letters to lonely relatives. Find what feels right to you. It may take a few times to find a good fit, but don’t give up. Keep going. Give back. If you do, you’ll feel good while making the world a better place, and you’ll take another step toward Becoming Yourself.

Mystery Castle: Turn Your Annoyance into Passion

In the rugged desert outside of Phoenix Arizona stands a castle.

This unusual structure was built by an unusual man. In the early 1920s, Boyce Gully was diagnosed with tuberculosis and given two months to live. He chose to face his impending death by running away. Without telling his wife and daughter of his diagnosis or his departure, Boyce left Seattle and moved to a desolate plot of land outside the then fledgling town of Phoenix.

Current day view of downtown Phoenix from Mystery Castle

Possibly aided by the desert climate, Boyce did not die in two months. Realizing he was feeling better, he decided to spend whatever time he had remaining building a fairy tale castle for the young daughter he’d left behind. Over the next twenty-odd years, Boyce scavenged rail yards and construction sites, hotel auctions and trash heaps, and used the random collection of materials to build his castle. Skylights made from old glass bakeware supplemented the natural light brought in from circular windows made from repurposed car tire rims.

In 1945, Bryce’s wife and daughter, Mary Lou, still living in Seattle, received surprising news from the man’s lawyer. Bryce had just died and left them a castle. The astonished women made the trip to Phoenix to see the property. The lawyer showed them one particularly unusual spot – a locked trap door in the floor of one of the rooms. Another surprise followed – Bryce’s will stipulated that his wife and daughter must live in the castle for two years before his lawyer would be allowed to use the only key to open the strange locker.

Showing strong wills and adventurous spirits, the women agreed. Over the two years, they fell in love with their desert retreat. On the day set for the opening of the mysterious compartment, Life magazine showed up to cover the event. When the lid was pulled back, the women discovered cash, gold, Bryce’s journals, and letters to them explaining what he’d done and why. The story about the “Mystery Castle” made the cover of Life in January 1948.

Soon after, strangers, intrigued by the story, began showing up on the property. Tired of continually running off the curious crowds, Bryce’s widow and Mary Lou tried to stem the tide by sticking a sign out front requiring a paid admission. Undeterred, people opened their wallets and asked to see the place. The women started providing regular paid tours and found that they actually loved showing off their Mystery Castle. Mary Lou gave tours until her death in 2010, and a foundation she established continues the tradition to this day.

As I wandered Mystery Castle on a recent tour, I was struck not just by the odd story and the unique architecture, but by the tenacity and cleverness of these amazing women. Not only were they willing to embrace a radical life change brought about by a man who’d abandoned them, but they took a severe nuisance – the uninvited crowds – and turned it into a positive. In doing so, they not only created an unexpected income stream but discovered an unexpected passion – sharing their fascinating home and story with others.

I drove away challenged by their resourcefulness. How can I take annoyances in my own life and flip them on their head? Turn them into a positive? What might I discover about myself if I do? The loud music from the outdoor bar down the street can be an opportunity to dance in our living room. The grit-my-teeth chore of cleaning our condo can be made almost enjoyable when doing it while listening to a favorite audio book. Stuck-in-traffic moments can be a chance for my wife and I to plan our next travel adventure.

How about you? What annoyances do you have in your life? Can you think of ways to flip them to a positive? Get creative. Think outside the box. Choose a different mindset. If you do, you might be surprised at what you discover, and you’ll take another step toward Becoming Yourself.

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